Saturday, November 27, 2010

Silence ....Paused

Death –unwanted destiny and unknown dismissal from the world ,different but mysterious topic to discuss and disclose .As all emotions and turning points of human being has  loud noise ,death in its peak of the journey has its own silence paused with all memories and that silence is helplessness  of human mind  of leaving sand to flow down from tight grip.

A day in house …I was having tea and relaxing…  I noticed heavy feet and welled eyes of my friend manu who walked in. before I could ask her anything she scattered on chair with her tears, after a minute of  struggle with her emotions she said her friend anupama  met with an accident in a lab where she was working and has been hospitalized from more than a week  and she is in her death bed …today from anupama’s home she received call and she is not able to accept that her friend is dieing and she could not do anything ….sand is moving out of her grip…

After 1 hour she received phone call from anupama’s house that she passed away and tomorrow they are doing their last duty towards her according to their customs. As I expected manu  broke down with great disappointment of losing her classmate .It was a difficult condition for me to watch her with such agony and allowing her to weep out instead  of consoling her.

 
The saddest thing I felt  manu was repenting  that never ever she can see and talk to her friend and  anupama wanted to meet manu a month  back as manu was unaware of her short period just said that she was busy to  give time for her friend…..and today manu wanted to share her time and anupama had very little balance to wait and talk…. 


 How many of us really have reason to say ‘No’ to meet a friend or we just tangle ourselves so that we are unreachable to the relation that we built unknowingly when we were sitting next to each other in a classroom. We do wait for reasons ..some marriage….some occasion to meet our daily friend of olden days…..rather I call it as golden days.…a friend that we meet first time when we entered first day in to our collage ..a friend helped us in preparing our drafts. a friend helped in saying sorry to our silly mistake…a friend who forgive us and smiled on our stupidity…..a friend who was with us when we were searching for job….and today we don’t have time to meet her/him…as we are busy with work…

In evening I could see an assembly of  anupama’s  friend on terrace. none of them were crying …all of them were talking about dead friend Anu…as they used call her. I can feel Anu around them..thier 3 years memories that they shared in college,library, a bunch of memories they shared with Anu in exam hall…their discussion on topics …her arguments towards topics….all  emotions of anupama were alive  around them…Anupama was alive with them ….I can feel a silence in their talk….a kind of paused silence that a falling leaf  leave on the ground ,a silence that horizon feels after a sunset ,a silence that eyes can feel without sleep… silence moulding into shape as talk went on about her in her absence . their silence was paying their homage to anupama.

FRIENDS….the dimensions and angle of a life is untamed without a friend. Being alone without a friend ….to fight and…to share emotions in life is biggest punishment one can have. To reveal  best of real world all of us need a friend …our friend contributes to the growth and also in grooming of our personality ..and what a friend need is our time in turn and…we deny it by giving reasons of our responsibilities. The noise of  laughter can break the deepest silence  of disappointed  mind ….and when corners of unseen mind lose in front of failures little lamp of smile of hope from a friend add up the confidence…to become a friend like that is a asset to one and to have fiend like that in one’s life is greatest asset that one can treasure. 


Let us find time to say hi and ask our friend how is she/he doing in life…?  Takes little time 10 mins on phone…on social network ….walkable distance near house ….half a day to spend  …..we need our friend as they need us to make today’s moment as tommarow’s memory to cherish …and to break silence that we all had in our noisy corners…before silence get paused in talk and before we say busy for a friend .